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Furious about his ignorance I got up and left the congregation. Walking through the streets of Budapest, I was angry at myself that I had come all the way to join these crazy people. "How can we just have one life!? He must be kidding!"

I first thought about how I could just leave the conference without hurting my dear girlfriend. Then I thought: Alright, what would if I only had THIS ONE life? What if I died soon and God said to me: "That was it!" I just played with that thought for a while. Obviously, life would matter so much more, would become so much more "existential". Every day would count as being very precious. It would be a much more radical life full of burning decisions!

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That, I thought, was not so bad, after all, no matter if I lived many times reincarnated or just this time. What if I just took it for granted that I had this life only and would therefore have to live in a way that I would follow my priorities, no matter what others would think or how it would fit into society…

I knew immediately that my priority would then HAVE TO BE to live with God and to follow him. I liked that thought. The purpose of life then could not be any longer to achieve wisdom and enlightenment. In one life, that seemed obvious, I could never become perfect. There would have to be a different purpose and reason to life!