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In those years I learned that it was important to develop wisdom in this life, to bring me closer to enlightenment and prepare me for the next life. I would get another 'chance' on this earth, in another life, to deal with the consequences of this life and with the things I have not mastered in this. So in a way I had my destiny in my hands, depending on my behavior. I must admit it was tiring to say the least. But that time I accepted it as a most sophisticated and wise plan for my life. I kind of thought I belonged to a spiritual elite.

When I had left university and acting school, I concentrated on camera work and I thought it would be most fulfilling and exciting to become a great Director of Photography. One of

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the most important moments in my life was the night of the premiere of a movie I had shot as a Cinema-tographer.

After the screening people were raving about our work, but the enthusiasm of the audience did not fill me with satisfaction at all!

How strange! I realized, even if I might be very successful one day and the whole world would be applauding my work, I would be feeling just thesame: Still looking for more satisfaction and fulfillment inside. That got me thinking. That very night I was lying there and prayed: