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'God, you are somewhere out there, I believe that. But you are kind of abstract to me. If I can live close to you, and if I can have a fulfilled and joyful life, please show me how. You have to show me and you have to convince me.'

I knew: only God could help me finding the truth and not my own wisdom… Curious what God would do to answer this prayer, I fell asleep.

After that my dearest girlfriend Nikola visited me in Berlin and I was surprised by the joy she was spreading. She told me with utter conviction that she knew now she

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was completely loved. I wanted to know how she could be convinced with such a clarity, so I decided to visit her in Vienna for the Easter week.

I arrived in Vienna and from there Nikola took me to Budapest to a Christian conference for the weekend. The preacher spoke about the resurrection of Christ and about our life and death.

I loved the preaching until he mentioned, we just had this one life. With the education I had that was the end of my sympathy right there!